Waiting for May, hurry up May, your not far away now, only 1 more month!

Took it, it was negative.

Im okay with that. At least that gives me more time to lose some more weight. And now I guess we wont try till May. But thats not far away now.

Well I bought the test, but now Im too chicken to take it....too scared of seeing a BFN.

Why does time go so slow when you are waiting?

Only 4 more days!

Im debating whether or not to go down the street and find one of those tests that lets you test 5 days before AF is due....or can I wait till Thursday??

I dont trust those extra early tests, Im scared of it giving me a false negative. We will see, I think curiosity might get the better of me though!

My first 2 week wait!

Well we were supposed to wait 2 weeks after my op before we 'you know', but one thing lead to another and now I am in the dreaded 2 week wait!

So only 6 days to go before testing woo hoo! I am so excited! I know that we decided to wait until May before we tried, but oh well!

I doubt we will get pregnant first try anyway...but you never know.

Oh what to do?

Just when I thought everything was sorted and we can start trying right away, I have kind of decided to wait another 2 maybe 3 months.

The reason is that there is going to be a federal election here in Australia in November. Each candidate has promised to introduce paid maternity leave in January 2011, something that is not currently available here.

One party has promised 18 weeks, the other 26 weeks of paid leave. So if we wait till I am due in Feb we will be entitled to this extra money, which means for me an extra 3 months or an extra  5 1/2 months at home with my baby, which just wouldnt be possible otherwise. Without the paid leave I would be able to have a total of 6 months off work, with the paid leave this would extend to 9 months, possibly 12.

So I guess even though I really dont want to wait any longer to start trying we would be mad to miss out on this extra special time at home with bubs.

So I am kind of in two minds at the moment, but am leaning towards waiting until June to start trying. The one good thing about this is it will give me a chance to lose some extra weight between now and then. Currently I am 74kg and I would like to get down to 65kg. So that will give me something to focus on in the meantime, and I guess in the end I will be healthier all round for another pregnancy.

My first post!

After we fell pregnant in November 08 we were ecstatic. We couldn't wait for our little bubs to arrive in July. Never did we for one moment imagine what was ahead for us.

In May 09 our little bundle of joy, a son we named Jack Cooper, was born sleeping. It completely shook our lives apart. We are now trying to pick up the pieces and continue on our journey.

We have had a few setbacks along the way, but we have now finally been given the go ahead to start trying to conceive again. So this blog will be my journal where I will be able to write what I feel, as I know this path is going to be long, hard and emotional.

So anyway this month we have missed out on, Im ovulating at the moment but because I just had an operation last Monday we have to wait until next month. But whats 4 more weeks, when we have been waiting since October hey?

So this month I will just focus on eating healthily, remembering to take my multi vitamins and exercising!