Saturday, March 5, 2011

18 weeks 6 days

Wow, I cant believe that its actually taken me this long to write something.
In the first 12 weeks, I was waiting for the bleeding to start, but it didn't, thank god.
I was also sick everyday and so so tired. Once I hit 14 weeks, I started to feel so much better and got my energy back. and then it just seems to have flown. Next week we have our 19 week scan. We get to find out if we are having a boy or a girl if we want! I think we are going to keep it a surprise though - like we did with Jack.

So I guess the good thing is that we are over halfway now, as I am only going to 38 weeks max. and so far I have had no swelling and my blood pressure has been good. So they are both great signs.

Still it doesn't stop me worrying just about every second of the day, and I often wonder how I will make it through another 18 weeks. Sometimes I seriously think i will end up in the loony bin.

Ive had two meltdowns so far. The first was at 16 weeks, and because i hadn't felt the baby move for like 2 days I was convinced that something was wrong - even though i know that its perfectly normal at 16 weeks.

The next was when I had some very slight bleeding about a week later, which turned out to be nothing, but that didn't stop me from having a meltdown on the phone to my best friend and having 2 days off work. i was a bit of a mess.

Since then though I have been feeling bubs move every day, which is fantastic and helps put my mind at ease - slightly.