37 weeks

Oh my god, I cant believe that I am actually 37 weeks pregnant!! It doesn't feel real at all. That in about a week I will be induced and then we will have a baby. My brain hasn't registered it yet, I don't seem to be able to believe that we will actually be bringing a baby home this time.

Im having trouble sleeping at night now, not because Im uncomfortable but because my mind wont stop ticking over with worry. I constantly worry about what could go wrong and whether or not this baby will be alright. I just cant wait to have the baby in my arms. It seems the further along I get the more difficult it is getting mentally. I really wish I could fast forward to after the baby's born, that would be handy.

Otherwise everything is looking good. We had an ultrasound 2 days ago and bubba weighs about 6lbs and everything looks great. we got a 4D pic, and it is sooo cute. Cant wait to see what he/she actually looks like!

30 weeks 3 days!

Cant believe I have made it all the way to 30 weeks with no swelling or blood pressure complications!
Going really well, but getting to the scary end now. I have another appointment next week with the professor and another ultrasound yay.
Developed gestational diabetes and that been difficult to eat all the right things because I have such a sweet tooth, but I will be able to manage if it means a healthy baby!
Cant believe theres only 7 1/2 weeks to go until I will be induced. Its hard to believe that it will actually happen.

25 weeks 5 days

So far everything is going beautifully. No swelling in my ankles at all which is great and blood pressure is good too!

Everything went fine at our 19week scan, we decided to keep the sex a surprise. I'm convinced I'm having a girl though. so much so that I just ordered some cute little headbands off the net today. If it turns out to be a boy I think I will faint ha ha ha!

We have another scan booked in for 27 weeks, so cant wait for that. just to check baby is growing well.

8 more weeks of work left and then I'm finished, yay!. Cant wait to just relax and treasure the last weeks of pregnancy. These last 3 months are going to go so slow I reckon. I just cant wait for this baby to arrive!

18 weeks 6 days

Wow, I cant believe that its actually taken me this long to write something.
In the first 12 weeks, I was waiting for the bleeding to start, but it didn't, thank god.
I was also sick everyday and so so tired. Once I hit 14 weeks, I started to feel so much better and got my energy back. and then it just seems to have flown. Next week we have our 19 week scan. We get to find out if we are having a boy or a girl if we want! I think we are going to keep it a surprise though - like we did with Jack.

So I guess the good thing is that we are over halfway now, as I am only going to 38 weeks max. and so far I have had no swelling and my blood pressure has been good. So they are both great signs.

Still it doesn't stop me worrying just about every second of the day, and I often wonder how I will make it through another 18 weeks. Sometimes I seriously think i will end up in the loony bin.

Ive had two meltdowns so far. The first was at 16 weeks, and because i hadn't felt the baby move for like 2 days I was convinced that something was wrong - even though i know that its perfectly normal at 16 weeks.

The next was when I had some very slight bleeding about a week later, which turned out to be nothing, but that didn't stop me from having a meltdown on the phone to my best friend and having 2 days off work. i was a bit of a mess.

Since then though I have been feeling bubs move every day, which is fantastic and helps put my mind at ease - slightly.

I havent written here for so long, it feels like forever. I think I just had to have a break from the whole pregnancy/baby loss world for a while after my miscarriage in July.

Im hoping that we will get some really good news in 2 days time, my period is due tomorrow and im hoping that it doesnt come! I am feeling positive.

Bye Bye Rainbow

Well now I know. The cramping got worse last night and I have had a lot of heavy bleeding and passed some clots also.

I have taken today off work, the bleeding is still quite heavy. I will go to the docs tomorrow still. I guess they will want to organise an ultrasound to make sure everything has come out.

Bye Bye to my little rainbow baby, Im sorry you couldnt stay.

Went and had a blood test done this morning, wont get the results until Wed morning though.

Just started having some cramping though and the bleeding is a little heavier...

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